last few weeks

Hvnt posted much recently since its been very depressing and brutal.
I hv bubbled all the live tournies for the wsop, that is after playing 9-10 hrs of grinding live poker. I had good opportunities in many tournies but I keep getting ul for monster pots...ah well. Online been pretty brutal too....means I cant even imagine how I can run so bad, for eg I lost 2 wsop HU seats in the last 2 double shooouts heads up (sick beats both times), winner got a seat (basically 11k) and 2nd got 360$, basically 11k bad beats each time. Just not this but even on all sites I hv been running terrible...sigh! Its been bad...ahh
Good news is its not as bad as it sounds...I like to whine :) I am still pretty ok BR wise and even though there has been a dent its still early to set alarms off...I am going to hv to grind however when I get back to India (grinding is obv the most fun thing in the world)
I am going to be playing the big tournies online till the Main event starts, might play some super satellites and try and recover some money...its funny since even if I hit something medium size I break even for the trip....just seems so ddifcult to win...ahh one time in the main event pleeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaseeeeeeeeeeeeee